painting vs. life/life vs. painting

Because most of my paintings are basically excuses to be around images of my mother, it can be difficult to recognize when she is the figure not working in a painting. It seems counter intuitive to fight the paint, and her image, when the entire point of making the painting is to create new moments with her in my life. But maybe that actually means that this process is more true to life then I would have initially thought. Every relationship has its off days, so maybe I am just fighting with my mom through this process(it would have to happen if she was still alive). Regardless, I took out the seated figure and am going to replace it with my mother's back andtwo other women. Hopefully this way she will get to be in the painting after all. I will update more tomorrow with better pictures and hopefully more clarity to the figures.